It's like I've been un-stoppered. I'm unstoppable, now.

1
Carolyn was broken
Pieces scattered around her bedroom,
Her bedroom filled so with things
So many things that you couldn't see the bits of her
And she would sit in the piles of the things,
and for hours, cut herself smaller
Smaller, like to disappear.
She had a long name, like in a story, and it felt important
and she wondered if she could be a story like her name
And so she wanted
And so she wanted
And so she was.

2
Emily had a great day once
It started with a nervous breath
and ended in secret,
like a slipping away.
She found colour this day
like it had never existed before
She found autumn leaves on long winding country roads
and fresh salty breezes from snow
over the ocean!
and it bursted
like red from black on white
and she was overwhelmed to say the least
"Throw open your doors," she said "and greet the dawn!"

3
Joan moved away to Colorado
looking for God and the mountains as well
flat tires, coincidence, and lilies in tow
and there's a lot to learn about Joan.
She swam in Karma
she did
and she took it down
and she loved so hard
so hard that it hurt
but it saved her.
And when she would lie at night
and stare at the stars
making wishes
and find herself fraying at the edges
her heart, heavy,
like a water balloon dangling in her chest
she would trace the lines on her skin
and find
pride
and being robbed blind
was nothing
nothing
to tarnish being given a life to live gloriously free.
And so all of her dreams came true.

4
Heather dances always in gypsy dresses at the edges of your vision.
Someone you long to love
she remains elusive
and wonderful
and bright.
Just knowing she's there
makes it irritatingly impossible
to have a bad day.
She lives
in a long distance relationship with the world
and it's appropriate-
she might make unintentional shadows
if she brought her light too close.

5
Augustana dreams of breaking hearts like summer winds
but settles for sculpting love
and edging her toe into the door to music instead.
Dabbler in everything,
master of nothing
and loving every minute of it,
she remembered a girl she knew once,
and meditated on it for a moment

...

6
Carolyn is better
pieces in place
only slightly precarious
like a puzzle you've memorized
it wouldn't take too long to put the pieces back together
should some great earthquake cause it
to fall apart in front of you.
Calm,
save for fits of indescribable joy
which occasionally plague her
she feels love
she is love
and a long name
like honey on a hungry tongue.



Maybe I'll write two songs tomorrow. I think it's possible. If I do then I might just be able to record a CD that's all original music. How freaking fantastic would that be?! It would be rough, really rough. But it's a start. I'm living it up here.
Here:

'Adventure beckons, so they say. "They" merely being me, really. But it does, so I say it. Florida! Despisable swamp, bane of my high school career, accursed wasteland of infestation and traffic hysteria! Oh! How I long to walk your squelching grounds once more! Irony, maybe, that I'm excited to return to a place which once nearly sucked the life out of me through slow, humid suffocation? Perhaps. Mostly just excitement over the anticipated reunion with family and friends I left behind. I'm even excited and hopeful about seeing my brother... curious how a constant stream of indescribable joy can make a person infallibly optimistic.'